I love horoscopes like this. :)

You have a lot of friends, Moonchild. You may not even realize just how loved and respected you are. Sometimes you get lost in worrying, in feeling sorry for yourself, and in getting so caught up in what's going wrong that you fail to see what's going right. You are a sensitive soul, and that has a lot to do with your vulnerability to worry. But right now your friends are willing to show you just how much you mean to them. If there is something you need, just ask.

The past 7 months...

Have just FLOWN by. I can't believe it's about to be July. I'm about to be 22! So this is what it feels like to "grow up" I mean I know that I've got plenty of life left but I just can't believe how fast time really goes by. 22. years. old. Wow, feels weird hearing it. seeing it. but I guess that's just life eh?

April was the four year anniversary of my Mummy passing away. That is crazy to think... I miss her each and everyday. I know that she is proud of me and what I've done with my career. I think about her ofter, if not everyday. I miss her so much. My life really hasn't been the same without her, but I know that she is in a better place. I try to stay strong like she taught me to for me and my dad. My daddy has really been doing great these days. He has been sober since November. I am so happy for him. I am so happy that our relationship has improved so much in the past few months too... I know that she looks down on us each and everyday. I love and miss you so muchie each and everyday Momma.

In just a few days Bryan and I will be celebrating our 3 YEAR anniversary pahhhh. Jesus I thought that I'd never see that day coming, but it is! We truly have been to hell and back but I knew that we would make it through. We are both really strong people. I'm so happy that I have found someone that is on the same page as me. We aren't in a hurry for anything. I'm glad that we are taking our time. I mean there's always a chance that things won't work out, and I know that. I think that some people have a hard time realizing that you CAN fall in love more than just once. But then again sometimes it only takes one time. Who really knows! Bryan has really been enjoying his new whip... the " Z " lord help me! Ha, anyways I mean we might as well has fun while we can. We don't live together and I am OK with that. I mean why move out if you don't have too? Plus we are able to have our space so when we hang out were not all bored. Ya know makes more sense...

There is going to be a very special little one that is going to be entering our lives very soon! Hopefully not on MY BIRTHDAY cause that's my day... or maybe that is just the " only child syndrome " talking... anywho. My sister in law aka Bryan's brother (Adam) 's girlfriend, Ericka is having a BABYYYYY! Woo lordy jesus thank you it's not me! Haha, but I'm totally happy for them. I'm pretty excited to see the little dude, babysit, spoil, etc. etc. I have been praying for them extra hard these days. Their lives are gonna 100% different. It's crazy how fast you have to grow up when a little one comes into your life. It'll happen for me one of these days... but maybe when I'm like 40!! I really do hope all things good happen for them :)

BUBBLESSS, has totally taken over my life, but not really! I am really glad that I chose to work there. I think that it has been a great starting place for me to build a clientèle. I say that I won't be there for forever... but then again I think maybe a place like this is a place for me. I'm not sure yet... I mean maybe I could become some type of manager, educator, or something. We'll see I suppose... I have been enjoying working part time at Anthony's Salon and Spa with my girls! They always know how to cheer me up when I'm down. I just love them.

I'm just going to keep living my life day by day. Not what's happened in the past, or what is going to happen in my future. I am going to stay positive. If you really think about you we are all in it for ourselves. We can't depend on anyone else. It's a harsh world out there. Thank goodness I've got the balls to survive.

I really need to vent.

This week really needs to be the fuck over with. People are so fucking inconsiderate and fucking stupid. That's all.

My life as I know it,

has officially begun. I'm 21 year young and I have a lot of life a head of me. This is going to be a new year, a positive year. The past is the past. I'm living for NOW, not yesterday, not tomorrow, but NOW. I am thrilled to say that I love my life. I just started a new job at Bubbles hair salon in City Center... I've only been there for three days but so far I love it. My previous job was causing me to really not appreciate the hair industry... I was sick and tired and really almost started to hate it, but now that I'm " on my own " I have a whole new outlook on it all. I now remember why I got into this business and why I plan on staying in the business for the rest of my life. I have a lot of opportunity to be very successful with this company, just as long as I stay positive. There is also a lot of education that is going to be available which I am very excited about because not only do I need it, but I want to learn more. Although I took a fairly large pay cut (which sucks a lot because I'm a big spender!) I think that everything is gonna work out great and in the end I will be much happier :) I'm also very, very thankful that I have Bryan in my life right now. I swear I don't know what I would do without that boy. He has helped me get on the right track here (as I have done for him in the past) to start this new year off right. We've had our issues in the past, but we got through them. I truly believe that things happen for a reason... I think at times tragedy makes us stronger, it makes us... not regret what we have been blessed with. I am the one to complain when things are shitty, but I've learned to just deal with the obstacles that life is going to throw at you, because it's life! Life happens, shit happens, blah blah blah. I'm hoping that I can do more things for myself, rather than others. I've been helping others more than I have ever helped myself, and I will admit... I've let myself go. Not only do I wanna be happy, I want to be healthy. So, I'm hoping with this new outlook on life I will be able to get my life on the right track and better myself in every way. Anddd I really hope that I will start using this blog a lot more:)

It's hard to believe...

... that it has been three years, today, that my mum has passed away. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. Not only was she my mum she was my best friend. I will forever cherish the memories that I had with her and live my life in the direction that she wanted me to. I know that she's in a better place now where there is no more evil, suffering, but happiness. I love and miss you mommy.

St. Patrick's Day

Woo, St. Patty's Day. I'm sure I'll be the only one sitting at home not getting wasted. Bryan and Aaron did buy me some PBR last night so maybe I'll have a few drinks before I go to bed. Today is going to be a long day for the following reasons: 1) it's fucking raining 2) it's fucking cold 3) tuesday's are the longest day of the week because i'm usually there for about 10 hours! Eh! Anywho I'm done bitching about. I think that I will have a fairly busy day so hopefully that will make the day go by fast. I haven't left for work yet... I have to go pick up Hickman around 10:30... In the meantime I'm watching The City, which I really don't like but my televison in my room doesn't have a remote and I'm just too lazy to go change the channel myself. So, I've started planning my 21st haha. Yeah I need to get a life because it's not for another 4 months... BUT I am really looking forward to it because I think that I will start going out more with my friends and begin having a social life. I feel like I have completely cut myself out of the social world... I usually go to work, go home, go to sleep. I'm really sick of that life style. So, I'm ready to get out and have some fun once again. Me and Bryan's 2 year anniversary issssss coming up soon. That's kinda crazy when I think about it... Sometimes I still wonder if we are "right" for eachother... I mean some days I just don't know. Well its about that time for me to leave. Peaceeeeee

07.09.07

If love is a labor, I'll slave 'til the end.